Thomasville Summer 2010

For updates on my Summer in Thomasville #2,
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It's a City and Colour kind of day :)

Ahhh! Blog!

Oh hi!
Miss me?
Not really?.. Well, I don't blame you. I've never really been a blogger. I do the whole facebook- quick few words of an update, kay done! type blogging.
But something like this is important from time to time to allow thoughts to flow and take concrete forms.
As an update, I'll be leaving Sunday to do Orientation for Thomasville and will be working there again this summer right after.
My biggest fear is that I'll go in expecting this summer to bring as many gifts as last summer did.
What I'm hoping will happen is the relationships I started to form last summer will regain themselves quickly this summer and allow even more of God to flow through me and into these kids, that the new kids I don't know will see how much the old ones trust me and be less wary because of this so that I won't have to start over from Square 1. I'm also hopeful that the mistakes I made last summer can be avoided this summer because I'm more aware of the system.
But I'm too worried about MY will for this summer when it should be HIS will I'm focused on. If things don't go exactly as I have planned, will I be disappointed? I think I might. And that's really not fair.
As always, prayer is requested and updates will hopefully be made.
After Thomasville, I'll be doing a round of International Missions that I'm incredibly excited about. Traveling has always been a passion but I rarely have the funds to go through with these ideas I have. Fortunately, most of the cost for my trips will be covered (how blessed I truly am) because I'm going in the name of Jesus to do minor missions in these places. Last on the long list of traveling places is Sao Paulo, Brazil and I'll be staying some extra days there to get in the tourism that I'll miss out on in these other locations.
Busy, busy, busy.
I hope to lose 2 sizes before going back to Wingate. Hold me to it.
Music- The Avett Brothers- The Ballad of Love and Hate
Crayola Doesn't Make A Color For Your Eyes-
Bon Iver (We have a love/hate relationship)
Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)
John Mayer Concert- July 16th!!! I'm 7 rows from the stage!!! Train opening.
Minor rant- JM has 3 bands opening for him, alternating tour days. These are The Avett Brothers, Train, and Owl City. I ADORE Avett Brothers and Owl City. I only know a handful of songs by Train, none of which I'm incredibly stoked over hearing live (sorry all you Soul Sister fans, I really don't care too much for that song... it's ok I guess) It'll be ok, though. JM will exceed my expectations as always.

Forever and Ever, Etc.

I created this blog initially (as the theme might represent) to allow myself to open up and love more.
What many people do not realize about my lifestyle is I have the absolute hardest time loving.
I'm not going to post my entire life story on the internet for anyone to see, but long story short, my heart has been shredded and I'm working and aching and yearning so hard try to put the pieces back into some concrete form.
Last night at Breathe, Oliver spoke about 1 John 4. How God's love is entered into us and because we have that love inside us we OUGHT to love others. Ought doesnt mean we should try to love like God loves us. That's impossible. Ought to love others is just like a fish ought to swim or a peach ought to be sweet. We ought to love others.

I am so greedy.

I have this love of God inside of me. Yearning and aching to be released. And I'm so needy that I'm keeping it all for myself without realizing it would do more good to pass through me and wash me clean to be conducted into other people.
And then I reach the argument- How much is too much? Should I just open my heart and allow it to be crushed again? Is it a trial and error prossess? And then you've got the opposite end of the spectrum- If I spread this love, who do I spread it to? Because if I love certain people the way I'd like to.... I'd kinda feel like a creeper.

This week, God was so very good to me. Through the Orphan Foundation, my Housing Deposit was paid for. While I was in the business office working with that, I had to take out a loan to finish off my final tuition, but the lady gave me a job opportunity and I'm now a writing tutor. I've got a dinner planned on Friday with a group of very lovely ladies. And hopefully I've got plans on Saturday to hang out with a friend who I yearn to know more about.
You know the friend I'm talking about... the one that is just so amazing and you two have so much in common that you just want to instantly be their best friend, but life is slowing you down.

Musical note: Nick Jonas and the Administration album came out this week. The song Vesper's Goodbye makes me sob.

Thank You Audrey Hepburn

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk along.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.