can't kick the habit

I think perhaps I've forgotten who I really am...
I'm not sure how to act as of currenlty and I'm losing touch with the comfort I once felt.

I don't know if it's God shrinking away right now to prepare me for something amazing when he presents himself full-force again, or if it's me trying to fit into places I don't belong.

Regardless, there's only 2 weeks of school left, and then I'll be with my BFF again.
But I only get 20 days before I'm off to work in the Baptist Children's Home.

God told me that it's where he needs me right now... and to bring coloring books...
But I'm so unaware of my emotional state as of lately.
Please God don't let me impress my horrible emotions upon those poor kids.

I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, but I also know that God works in mysterious ways...

Please pray for me. That God keeps His surprises in check and that I'm kept emotionally strong in His image for these orphans.

... And I said I wasn't going to turn this into one of those emo blogs.
But at least there's some God in there.
As for the music:
I'm recently infatuated with the band PureNRG. They only have a few good songs (okay, like 2-3) but they're quite inspirational. Go listen to their song Here We Go Again.